I always talk about the LITTLE THINGS. How the way I perceive things differently after facing Cancer, chemo and my situation.
Today we leave to go down the shore for the week. I told the family at dinner that I wanted to leave by 7 AM. True to their style, the kids came in and woke us up at 6:15 AM. As we were snuggling in bed together as a family Ava said “I had a weird dream last night. I dreamed that we were stuck in traffic FOR THE REST OF OUR LIFE.”
That statement always hits me. THE REST OF OUR LIFE. But this morning – for whatever reason – I heard her say it and in my mind THE REST OF MY LIFE seemed like a really long time.
Don’t get me wrong – I always have a positive attitude. I know I am going to beat Cancer. BUT – when people say things like THE REST OF OUR LIFE I can’t help but cringe a little bit. Again – for whatever reason this morning – my mind took me to a place where I visualized my family. Helene, Victor, Ava and me – in a car – on the Garden State Parkway – and we were old – and it was a long time from now.
And isn’t that great. Just where I want to be FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. Maybe not on the Parkway – but together, all of us together. Me, Helene, Victor and Ava – FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES.