Five months ago today (12/1/12) I was diagnosed with Multiple Myeloma. This rare plasma cell/blood cancer that I had never heard of before then has taken me on an incredible journey.
I have learned more about myself – what I feel, how I express those thoughts, the meaning of family and what I am capable of – than I could have ever imagined. If there is a SILVER LINING to Cancer it is self discovery.
Over the last five months I have been able to relish all of the small moments and daily interactions that make up my life. Everyone I encounter has an impact on me. From the support and care of family and friends to the kindness of medical professionals and strangers – my life is made up of SILVER LININGS that happen every day.
I remember my first visit to the oncologist when I asked him if I would live for my kids’ bar mitzvahs – he said YES.
I remember my first visit to Mount Sinai Hospital and Dr. J and the confidence he inspired that I would live a long time.
I remember all of the research done by all of my family in the medical profession.
I remember my first treatment when the nurse (Gitty) held my hand and said “I am very happy for you…you are on your way.”
I remember telling my kids – this isn’t so bad – you have nothing to worry about.
I remember all of my family and friends who came to treatments with me to keep me company and held my hand.
I remember the first night I was able to sleep in a position other than on my back.
I remember the first night I was able to sleep without pain medication.
I remember the first time I got the blood markers back that showed we were heading toward remission.
I remember the first time I put my pants on without holding onto a dresser or the wall for support.
I remember running during basketball practice for the first time in over a year.
I remember my first spin class.
I remember every email, every text, every phone call and every hug I have gotten since 12/1/12. Although the journey is just beginning, we have accomplished much.
BUT I also remember that I am five months into something that is supposed to only last five to seven years. I need to remain vigilant against this. I need to keep grinding it out every day. I plan on exceeding that five to seven years life expectancy by a great deal and I can thank you all in advance for helping me achieve that goal.